Wednesday, November 1, 2006

November 2006


  • This might be too long!

    Current mood:cheerful
    Hooray we are home!  Yesterday was a long a grueling day of travel, but we made it home alive. (thank you American arlines and terrorists who decided to stay off my flight)  I don't know what it is about flying the friendly skies, but I ALWAYS end up with major boogers in my nose after a day of flight.  It's nice to be home and booger free.  Don't even get me started on the unpacking.....cause I haven't started.  This blog is going to cover the week we spent in California....if the thought of hearing about our vacation bores your socks off.....feel free to keep your socks on, but bare feet are always more fun.
    Thanksgiving can be summed up in one word......nightmare.  We got up at 3:00 in the morning and dragged ourselves to the airport.  It was freezing cold and we packed so much for our first trip with the baby that I didn't think we would make it to the terminal from the park and ride.  We did make it, but do you know how hard it is to get through security with a baby?  The shoes have to come off, the belts have to come off, the jackets have to come off, the blanket the baby is wrapped in has to come off, the laptop has to come out, the pocket change has to come out.....it's really a circus.  All that, and once we get cleared everything has to be put back without blocking others.  I know we need all of these safety precautions, but man is it a pain and a half to go through all that and keep a baby happy and calm.  So we get on our flight and from there things are pretty much normal.  The baby was an outstanding flyer and didn't cry at all.  She slept a good deal and played and overall it was uneventful.  People did compliment us on how good she was and that made Dan and I very proud!  We land in CA after 10 hours of traveling, exhausted with the festivities still to come.  We thought we would be able to take a nap before people came over to my parents house, but Maddie was not interested in napping and the only person who could babysit while we napped was my mother the cook of all things yummy and Thanksgiving.  42 people arrived at my parents house ready to celebrate, and celebrate they did.  It was so freaking loud and there were so many people there.....by 6:30 the baby had had enough and loudly screamed at the idea of being passed on to another person.  I had to hole myself up in the back of the house and resort to skin to skin contact to get her calmed down and eventually to sleep.  Which was not an easy task seeing as there was no where in the entire house that was quiet.....there were people everywhere.  Everyone eventually left and after some musical beds (Dan slept with baby, I slept with grandma in parents bed, mom slept on couch, Dad slept on floor in bonus room) we all went to sleep, but by the time I went to bed, I had been up for 24 hours, and only had 4 hours of sleep in a 48 hour period......I was exhausted.  Overall not a great idea to have a huge Thanksgiving celebration with 42 people after a long day of traveling.  It was too much for Maddie.  My mom says that she is never again going to host that many people for any holiday.....I don't blame her.  But, on a positive note, the food was fantastic and it was nice seeing family that we hadn't seen in a while and showing off our little baby.
     


    I did participate in some black Friday shopping with Stephie although we were smart and didn't head out until 2:00 in the afternoon and bypassed all of the crazy shoppers.  Finding parking was easy and there were no huge lines to buy things.  It was really nice spending time with my Stephie but also really weird because she doesn't live in OC anymore and our time was limited.  I know it sounds selfish, but I'm used to seeing her whenever I want when I come into town and this trip she had other people she needed to spend time with and I didn't get my usual Stephie fix.  I guess that is what happens as we grow up and move away.....hopefully she will come out here again soon and stay for a week and I can have her all to myself.  I didn't buy anything great although I did find an adorable sweater with an owl on it for Maddie at Old Navy.....it's super cute!
    As usual the whole family went over to Mike and Robin's (my brother and sister in law) for dinner.  Mike grilled delicious steaks and Alyssa played with Madeline for a little bit.  It was a nice evening of food and conversation.  We tried doing a photot shoot with the cousins but it's hard enough to get one child to smile and look at the camera.....two is not possible.


    Dan and I had a few opportunities to have time alone just the two of us while Grammy watched Maddie.  We went out to lunch and toured some model homes that are being built across the street from my parents house.  It was nice having that time to ourselves with the knowledge that our baby was safe and sound with her Grammy.

    Walt's Warf was fantastic!  I was pretty disapointed though because they did not have my favorite macadamia nut crusted alaskan halibut with mango avocado salsa.  They are changing their menu so they have more seasonal items and so I was forced to order sword fish with a sundried tomato compote.....still pretty good, but not the same.  The baby as always was a very good girl the entire time and on our traditional walk to the end of the pier, she fell asleep in the stroller.  It was pretty cute.

    Sunday morning we got up bright and early (not really, we'd been getting up at 7:00 all week due to the time change) and went to my parents church.  The service was as usual pretty dull, but seeing as my parents go to a church with mostly older people in their 50s and 60s, it wasn't surprising.  It was however tons of fun to dress Madeline up in a cute little church dress and show her off to my parents friends.  She looked super cute and squishy and was a good girl in church.....not even a peep.

    We took Maddie to get her hand and foot prints done in clay.  There is a business in Mission Viejo who does them and they are super cute.  My niece Alyssa had them done when she was a month old and my mom has a christmas ornament from it.  Maddie was really good although she cried when they put her foot in the clay.....it was cold.  We popped her paci in and all was well with the world.  We got an ornament of her hand and her name and a plaque with her hand and foot and her name.  They will get backed and glazed and colored once they dry and we should receive them before Christmas.  I can't wait.....they are too cute!

    Somehow we were able to squeeze decorating for Christmas in with everything else.  My mom and dad put the tree up and we played Christmas music and reminised over all the old ornaments.  Getting the tree decorated has always been a tradition that I did with my mom and it was really great to be able to help her this year.  Maddie couldn't really help due to her fine motor skills not being developed all that well, but next time she can become part of the tradition.

    I swear that California air does wonderfully for babies.  Every single night Madeline slept between 8 and 9 1/2 hours straight.  She would then wake up to nurse and go back to sleep for another 3 or 4 hours.  She was starting to sleep through the night at home, but it was sporatic......but she mastered it while we were in Cali.  And I was worried that it might not stick once we came back home, but last night she slept through the night again.  Fell asleep at 11:00, woke up 8 hours later to nurse at 7:00 and then went back to sleep until 10:00.  Woo Hoo!  I am so excited!  I don't even mind that she is on California time because that means we get to sleep in every morning.  I can't believe she is not even 3 months old and is sleeping through the night.....I thought it was going to take much longer, but I'll take it now!
    So, we had quite an eventful vacation in California.  It went by as always way too fast, but it was nice coming home.  Everytime we get ready to go to CA I get excited about a month before we go, have a crazy whirlwind time there and am more than ready to come back home once our vacation is over.  I miss my parents, but I love my little family being here in North Carolina.  For right now I feel like this is where we belong.....well at least until we win the lottery and buy a home in San Diego.....then we might have to split our time between the two.  Well, I guess that's all.  It was probably everything and nothing you wanted to know about our Thanksgiving holiday. 
  • The land of dial up....a.k.a. my parents house

    Current mood:exhausted
    A couple of days ago I had written a very nice long blog describing our Thanksgiving experience and all the fun that we have been having here in California and when I went to post it, the internet needed to close due to a fatal error.  Whats up with that?  Does anyone really know what these so called fatal errors are, or why they happen?  All I know is that all my hard work went right down the dial up drain and I was left tired and not in the mood to try and write anything else.....and I've felt that way ever since.  I am exhausted.  Vacation has fully exhausted me and I am really ready for our flight back home tomorrow and getting back to our normal non-vacation lives.  I really need a vacation from our vacation.  I plan on doing much blogging once we get home and posting delicious pictures, but for now I am letting you know that I am okay and exhausted.  I'm going to join my little baby in bed and blissfully slumber until tomorrow!!  Peace out homies.
  • from bleh to upper 70's and sunny

    The weather here in Smithfield is gross.  It has been raining for what seems like forever and it is super windy.  A couple of times today I thought the wind was going to tear our roof off and I was going to have to take the baby and huddle in the bathtub.  You'll be glad to know that our roof is intact.  I am really sick of this weather and dream of the day when I can go out and get the mail without getting soaked or half blown over.....who am I kidding......Dan gets the mail everyday!  haha.  But it's a-ok that I am ready to ditch the rain because the day after tomorrow we are heading out west to 70 degree weather and sunny skies!!  woo hoo!  California here we come!
    I am so excited to be going home for Thanksgiving.  I can not wait to see my family, to eat delicious food, to visit the ocean and to see my dear friends.  Plus we get to show the baby off to 40 people who will be at my parents house for turkey day.  That will be lot's of fun.  It has been about 5 months since I have been back to California and it seems like FOREVER.  It will be so nice to be able to sleep in (because grandma will have baby duty of course) and just relax for the week that we will be there.  My grandma Irene is going to stay the night one night and I think it will be so much fun to have a sleep over with her.  I get to see my Stephie and go shopping with her on black Friday and enjoy everything involves spending time with my best friend.  I want to bask in the sunny weather and take Maddie to the beach and put her tiny toes in the sand and see what she thinks of it.  We are also going to eat at our family's favorite restaurant Walt's Warf in Seal Beach......if you live in Cali and haven't been to Walt's Warf, you should totally go, and if you are going to visit Cali you should go too!  I am really looking forward to everything about this trip other than us having to wake up at like 3:30 in the morning to make our 6:00 am flight on Thanksgiving, and the idea of traveling for 7 hours straight with a 10 week old.  Now more than ever I wish we could teleport ourselves to where we want to go!  Maybe technology will get there.  Haha.
    The other exciting thing about November 23rd is it's the anniversary of our (Dan and I) first date three years ago.  November 23, 2003.  In 2 days we will have known and loved each other for 3 years.....I am confident that he fell in love with me the first day he met me! lol.  I know that 3 years isn't that long in the scheme of life, but I feel like I have known Dan for so much longer than that.  I feel like he has always been in my life.  So baby, here's to 3 fantastic, beautiful, amazing, fulfilling and unforgetable years!! 
    Cheers to us!
  • Turkey day came early

    Current mood:thankful
    Tonight Dan and I had our very own little Thanksgiving celebration.  Since we are going to be in California for the holidays we decided to do our own thing early.  I spent the whole day baking cookies for our neighbors.....pumpkin chocolate chips cookies, oatmeal banana cookies and cranberry orange cookies.....yummm.  Hopefully the neighbors will enjoy them cause they took me most of the day to make......like 8 or 9 dozen!!!  Also, we cooked a turkey (a small one) and I made my grandmother's stuffing and we celebrated our very own day of thanks.
    This year has been a big one and as I sit here I realize how very much I have to be thankful for.  I have a fantastic husband who means the world to me.  He is patient and kind, he does not envy or boast and he is not proud.  He is not rude or self seeking and he definitely is not easily angered and keeps no record of wrong.  He always protect, always trusts, and always hopes.  My husband is the definition of love and for that I am more than thankful!!  I am thankful for my precious baby girl.  She is so sweet and innocent and I am so blessed that God chose me to be her mommy.  Maternal love is something so amazing and strong and I am thankful I get to experience it!  I am thankful for my family.....my parents who raised me and helped me to become the woman I am today.  Our relationship has blossomed and grown since having my own child and I am grateful that life is full of new beginnings.....and my parents who I have acquired through marriage who have accepted me as their own and welcomed me with open arms.  After moving 3,000 miles away from California it is so wonderful to have family close by that I can always count on and who love our little family as much as my in-laws do.  I am thankful for my friends.  Even though I don't really have any in North Carolina (yet) I have lifelong friends who are more like family than just friends.  I can count on them when I need them and I know they will always be there. 
    Life will always be full of ups and downs and I know that some days I will not feel like getting out of bed, but I always will because I have people in my life that I love and I know that there are people that love me. And what better reason to get out of bed than love?  My life is blessed and I am so thankful for everything that God has given me.  I hope that everyone has a terrific Thanksgiving! (even those who do not celebrate it today like we did!)  And make sure you take the time to tell those you love that you are thankful for them.  I know I'm gonna. 
    Maddie says: "Gobble Gobble."

  • Could it be a fluke?

    Current mood:jubilant
    Last night Maddie slept through the night.  8 whole hours of uninterrupted sleep for the Mommy!!!  The night before she slept 7 and a half hours.  It could just be a fluke, but it seems as though she is finally getting big enough to have some solid sleep at night.  Granted we power nurse in the evening so that her tummy is nice and full and she still is not sleeping a whole lot during the day, but hey.....I can live with that if it means a good night sleep for us adults.  I'm not going to hold my breath though and expect this all the time, but I will gladly take it when it comes!  Woo Hoo!
  • 2 month Dr. appointment

    Current mood:happy
    Today was Maddie's 2 month Dr. appointment.  It went really well although she was sleeping when we got there and did not like being woken up and stripped naked to be weighed.  She is growing like a weed......24 and a half inches long and 14 pounds 3 ounces!!!  I can't believe how much weight she has gained, breast milk really does a body good.  She seems to be at the tail end of a cold but nothing major and she is healthy in every other way.  I got some saline drops to put up her nose to make the crusty boogers soft enough to suck out.  I'm sure she is going to love that.  Haha.
    Dan and I are not all that hyped about our pediatritian.  When I called them about her eye infection they didn't want to see her and just called in a prescription for some eye drops which was questionable in my opinion......they should have seen her.  Then today when I told her Dr. that I used breast milk in her eye and it cleared right up she looked at me like I was crazy.  We have decided to not give Maddie vacination shots because we have done a lot of research on it and the side affects can be aweful, and we'd like to wait at least until she is older and then re-evaluate our decision then.  The Dr. basically gave us a lecture about vaccines and how babies die from the diseases that we vaccinate against (even though most of those diseases have been irraticated) and she told us that Maddie would not be allowed in public school (which is a big fat lie) and told us that she does not want to be responsible for anything that could happen to Maddie from not getting shots and that she didn't think that she could be our Dr. (like our decision as parents would make her liable) but when we told her that we knew of a doc in our area who is pro waiting on vaccinations and that we would gladly switch to his practice and we were not going to let her make the decision to vaccinate for us, she "decided" to let us stay as patients.  We are switching anyway.  But it amazes me that Dr.'s think that most people are stupid and have not done any research and that they can just tell us bold faced lies.  There have been lot's of articles written on the relationship between drug companies (like the ones that provide vaccinations) and Dr. practices and how they get kick backs from the drug companies for pushing their products.  My child's health care is completely in my hands (and Dan's) and we have the right to make the decisions we feel are best for our family and our Dr. should not try and use scare tactics and lies to change our minds.
    Anyway.....enough with my rantings.  My baby is healthy as can be and happy!  We'll find a new Dr. that has the same belief system that we do.  Just makes you wonder how anyone on the earth survived before we had vaccinations........according to the beliefs of our pediatritian everyone should have been killed off.
    Happy, healthy.....and a chunk.
  • Sunday happenings

    Current mood:tired
    Today was really gross out.  It was rainy all day and overcast and generally pretty bleh outside.  Dan and I went to church and put Maddie in the nursery for the first time.  I thought it was going to be tramatic for me, but it wasn't bad at all!  The fact that it was only for an hour and a half made it pretty easy.  It was nice being able to pay attention to the message and enjoy the loud music from the praise band.  All in all a good experience.
    We went out to breakfast as is our tradition and then went to Kohls and I got some new jeans and a sweater in preparation for our trip to California for Thanksgiving.  I also went to the Carters outlet in search of a turkey outfit for the baby and was disapointed by the fact that they had sold out about a month ago.....but I got some REALLY cute overalls (2 pairs) and a cute pant/jacket set.  She is going to look fantastic in them!
    This evening while Dan was playing with Maddie I harvested my basil plants and am going to make lots-o-pesto from them.....yummm.  I also baked a butt load of oatmeal cookies for the hubby to bring to work with him.  It was a pretty mellow Sunday and I enjoyed every minute of it.


     The basil (sweet basil on the left, lemon basil on the right)
     The cookies...yummm (there are a few missing because a cookie theif stole them......I won't name any names....DAN)

  • Breastmilk.....magically delicious, or just magical?

    Current mood:chipper
    So, Maddie developed an eye infection this week.  Her poor little eye was glassy looking with liquid in it, and a yellow mucus was collecting in the corner.  When she would fall asleep the mucous would get crusty and make her eye kind of stick together.  It was really sad and I freaked out!  I don't like being sick in any fashion and I am very proactive about healing myself, so you can imagine my reaction to my 2 month old having eye problems.  I freaked out and got myself really stressed.....I called the Dr. but it was 10 minutes till 5:00 and the ho-bags who work the front desk had left early.  Poop.  So I decided that I would call them again first thing the next morning and freaked out some more and look up everything I could on-line about eye infections and how to treat them.  I also asked my myspace breastfeeding group if they had any suggestions and MANY of them said to squirt some breast milk in her eye.  What?  So, I then researched breastmilk for eye infections and found a few sites that recommended it.  Still being skeptical I decided that I could either do nothing about it until the morning  when I called the Dr. and freak out over it every time I looked at my precious baby's eye, or I could try a little breastmilk and see what happens. 
    So, I tried the breastmilk.  And guess what I discovered?  IT TOTALLY WORKS!!!  Thursday night I did it twice, and Friday I put breastmilk in her eye almost every time I changed her diaper and Saturday morning I wake up to a perfect looking eye!!!  No liquid, no mucus, no irritation.....PERFECT!!  I can't believe that it actually worked, but it did.  And I found out that breastmilk can work on lot's of things from cuts and scrapes to eye and ear infections.  It makes sense though if you think about it.....breastmilk is the nectar from the gods and has tons of antibodies which help a baby fight off sickness and allergies, why wouldn't it help with an eye infection?  That is amazing!  Just another reason on top of many many more why breast is best!

    Happy and gunk free baby!
  • The things we don't talk about

    Current mood:listless
    While I was pregnant I discovered that there were many many things that went on that no one really talked about.  I had lot's of pregnency symptoms and I was pretty vocal about them.  The peeing all the time, the diarrea and the constipation, the not sleeping and the headaches.  People would be surprised when they asked me how I was feeling (a common question to ask pregnant women) and I would tell them.....I feel crappy and add in whatever symptoms I was dealing with that day or at that moment.  I guess the normal response should have been "I feel fine, or I feel good," etc. but I never really understand why people ask the question and then expect a generic response of a canned feeling.  If someone took the time to ask me then I was going to tell them how I was really feeling, and if all they really wanted was generic happiness than tough cookies.....maybe next time they wouldn't ask me.  But I have found that even when I ask pregnant women how they are feeling or whats going on, I too mostly get the "I'm fine," answer, even when they are not fine.  For some reason no one talks about the down side to pregnancy, the poopie days, the negative aspects or bad feelings.....it's kinda taboo.
    I'm discovering that the exact same thing happens once you have your baby.  Everyone always talks about how great their kids are, how fast they are growing, how well they're eating, how long they're sleeping and how many milestones they have racked under their belts.  I do it too.  I want people to see my baby and think that she is perfect, (which of course she is)  but it makes me feel like crap most of the time.  Because in reality it's not that sparkily perfect.  We are dealing with gas, and pain from not pooping and waking up in the middle of the night and screaming fits from colic and not napping during the day and wanting to be held ALL the time and being attached to my boob pretty constantly at times.  A lot of times I feel like I am really alone in this whole thing.....Dan is a huge help, but I mean alone as in other mothers aren't going through it as well.  They only talk about how wonderful everything is with their kids and how happy they are and I feel like at times I am flailing around just trying to make it through the day with some sanity.  I KNOW that this will pass and evetually Maddie will sleep through the night and poop regularly and nap during the day and not need to be held all day, but I really wish that people would talk more about the hard times they go through.  It would just make me feel a little bit better that I'm not the only one dealing with these things and that I don't have to live up to perfection. 
    Why is it that we only talk about the good and happy things that are going on in our lives?  Are we really afraid that people are going to judge us or think that we are less than because we have not reached perfection?  I think it's time that people start getting real (and yes I kinda stole that fom the Real World) and drop the facades.  I'm having a bad week. 
    Please no hateful comments......although I guess that would be real and in my current pro tirade mood I would have to accept them or be a hypocrite.  So, go ahead and hate on me.  lol.
  • Autumn leaves are falling

    Current mood:happy
    I love this time of year.....it could easily be called my favorite (second to Christmas) time of year!  The weather is getting colder and there is a wonderful crispness in the air.  It's time to pull out the sweaters and jackets and bundle up.  It's a great feeling to go to bed with socks on and to cuddle up with blankets.  I really wish that we had a fire place because there is nothing better than the crackling of wood and the glow of the hearth.  I love fall......I especially love the colors of the leaves as they change from green to yellow and orange to red.  It's such a beautiful smashing of color that just brightens my spirits.  Having grown up in California I did not get to see the fall leaves change color and I am so glad that I now live in a state where every October I get the gift of the fall season.  In just a few short weeks all of the trees will lose their precious leaves and will look sad and barren until spring, but for now I will enjoy their beauty.



  • The art of colicy baby wearing

    Current mood:tired
    For those of you who do not know and who might care, Madeline has a mild case of colic.  It starts around 6:00 pm (5:00 now with daylight savings time) with fussiness, crying during nursing, general discomfort and sometimes just plain screaming.  Dan and I can pretty much keep the screaming to a minimum by just holding her, but with the other symptoms we have been learning different creative techniques.  If you haven't checked out the video on my page, please do.....that is technique number one.  (I also have another video that is new, just click the "video" button next to the "pic" button on my page....it's too cute!) 
    Anyway.....another great technique that we have learned that helps with the colicy symptoms is to wear our precious girl in various slings.  We stick her in and amazingly within minutes she is a quiet baby and usually falls asleep and we bypass the colic episode all together.  The draw back to wearing her is that when she falls asleep at 6:00 pm she for some reason thinks that it is bedtime and will not wake up again despite our efforts.....that is however until she is ready to be awake from 2:00 am until 5:00 am. 
    So, the eternal question......Is it worse to deal with 3 hours of fussing/crying/screaming or to wear her, bypass the colic, but wake up in the middle of the night for 3 hours.  (she usually goes back to sleep from 5-9)  Let me know what your opinion is and enjoy the fun "wearing Maddie pictures"
    P.S. today I decided to wear her from 4-6 in hopes that the extra sleep will make her a happier baby from 6-9.....maybe it's just a not getting enough sleep issue.  We'll figure out what works eventually........RIGHT???




Sunday, October 1, 2006

October 2006


  • I love Saturday

    Current mood:content
    Saturday is my favorite day.  I love being able to sleep in.....and yes, with my husbands help with Maddie I get to sleep in.  I love relaxing and drinking coffee and having nothing to do but spend time with my family.  Today it is gorgeous outside and we have the windows open and even sat outside on the porch with the baby so she could hear the wind chimes.  I got some scrapbooking done and Daddy and Maddie had a fun play date.  I love my family, I love where I am in my life and I love Saturday.




  • estupido means stupid in spanish

    Current mood:chipper
    The Moms club that I joined has a book club that reads one book a month and then meets and discusses what their thoughts were on the book.  Although I don't know if I will have very much time to read, I was really excited about the idea of a book club because I LOVE reading!  I used to read at least a book a week pre baby and I figured that even with little time, I should be able to read one a month and be part of the book club.  Well, yesterday I got the invitation to November's book club meeting (they use e-vite for all of their events) and on the invitation was a synopsis of the book that they are reading this month which is........Second Chance by.......Danielle Steel.  Uhhh WHAT?  I could not believe it!  With all of the wonderful literary masterpieces that are in this world, my Moms club book club is reading the thought provoking work of DANIELLE STEEL.  Are you kidding me?  I have always come to the defense of stay at home moms (hey, I am one) and really believe that we are just as intelligent as our working counterparts and have chosen just as challenging professions, but COME ON!  Danielle Steel?  I am really disapointed and let down by the women in this book club.  They are giving us intelligent stay at home moms a bad name and really dumbing-up the idea of a book club.  I think that I may try and get in good with whomever makes the book selections and see if maybe we can get something a little less bodice ripping for December.  I have nothing more to say........except........
    P.S. My husband is the dictator of our home and won't let me turn the heat up past 68 degrees.  My toes are cold and I'm afraid they might fall off.  I love you honey!  lol.
  • Discoveries

    Current mood:thankful
    I've been a mommy for almost a month and a half and there are so many things that I have discovered about myself, my husband and the new life I now live.
    Having an infant is hard work.  While I was pregnant thoughts of soft skin, chubby cheeks and giggles danced in my head, and while all of those things are fantastic…..it's also a lot of hard work.  Rewarding, but hard.
    My maternal instinct kicked in instantly and is strong.  I was a little worried about this because I had been around a lot of kids in my life and was always ready to give them back to their parents when I was done with them.  Having Madeline was totally different and I don't really like being away from her for any length of time.
    Dan loves me.  During the labor/delivery and recovery period Dan helped me with some things that I don't think I would even do for anyone.  He showed so much strength and patience and never made me feel like I was a burden.  
    Other peoples children crying can drive me insane, but my own baby crying breaks my heart.  It's amazing the drive I have to make everything better when Maddie is crying.  A few times I have even sobbed myself because there was nothing that I could do to make her feel better. (damn gas)
    I am a huge advocate of breastfeeding.  I always knew I wanted to breastfeed, but since I started with Madeline I've experienced the incredible bond that flows between us and I don't plan on putting any time constraint on how long I nurse her for.  It's recommended for a year, but I will continue as long as it's mutually enjoyable for both of us.
    My husband is an incredible father.  There was never a doubt that he wouldn't be a good father, but he is amazing with our baby and a wonderful help for me.  Poopie diapers don't faze him.  When she is crying and nothing seems to be wrong and nothing can calm her he will sit and patiently hold her until she falls asleep.  And he gets up in the middle of the night to change her or sit with her so that mommy can get some sleep.  His love for her is apparent even to strangers.  He is outstanding!
    I think that my baby is the cutest baby in the world.  Yes, there are very good looking babies out there, but mine is better than all of them.  (sorry to everyone else and your children) lol.
    I am capable of functioning with so much less sleep than I would have ever imagined.  It's amazing to me that I can have a night with 4 broken hours of sleep and still get up and love my baby, take care of my house, cook meals and not want to kill my husband for getting a nice sold 7 hours of sleep.
    My body is in a constant state of motion.  Even when I am not holding Maddie, I tap my toes, rock from side to side and sway.  I think it's a permanent condition from holding and trying to get my baby to be calm, or fall asleep.  Dan does it too.  Haha.
    I watch far less TV than I used to.  Don't get me wrong, I watch just as many shows as before I had a baby, but I am usually holding Madeline and talking to her or looking at her and I miss most of what is going on.  I ask Dan constantly "what did he just say," or "what just happened?" I'm sure it annoys him a lot.  But I find that I don't pay attention to TV nearly as much even with a DVR.
    Babies grow like weeds which in my case means that she is already growing out of her precious baby clothes.  She has outgrown some 0-3 month clothes and we have moved up to 3-6 month clothes and she is only 6 weeks old.  I know she will slow down eventually, but man we're gonna have to shell out some $$ if she keeps it up!
    The phrase sleeping like a baby is a bunch of malarkey in reference to sleeping soundly and peacefully.  Babies (and I say babies plural because I don't think it's just mine) do not sleep soundly.  Madeline thrashes around, kicks her legs, hits herself in the face, grunts, growls and makes cooing sounds.  She is asleep the entire time she is doing all of these things unless hitting herself wakes her up, but she most definitely does not sleep like a baby…..and neither does her mommy anymore.
    I may never be on time again.  I used to be a very punctual person and lateness really upset me, but with a baby I can't seem to be on time for anything.  I try to schedule things around her nursing so I don't have to breastfeed in public, but sometimes she doesn't cooperate.  Diaper has to be changed before we leave, diaper bag has to be packed, baby has to be put into car seat, water needs to be filled up in my cup…..there are just so many things to be done before we leave the house.  Gone are the days of grabbing my keys and sunglasses and jumping in the car.
    Infant poop is easy to clean off butt cheeks, but near impossible to get out of baby clothes.  All of those cute, tiny baby clothes that we have for Maddie are slowly being stained with yellow baby poop.  So sad.  *sigh*
    The most expensive diapers are not always the best.  We have tried Huggies, Luvs, Pampers and although I now like the Pampers Swaddler diapers, for the first 4 weeks we ended up using the Target brand diapers because they worked the best.  Which happened to work out for us because they were half the cost of any other name brand diapers!
    Sometimes Madeline makes a face and I swear I'm looking at Dan.  She doesn't look like either one of us particularly….she has my ears, and face shape and I think she has Dan's nose and possibly his lips…..the jury is still out on who's eyes she has.  But I swear every once in a while she is the spitting image of her Daddy.  It will be fun to see who she resembles as she gets older and her looks progress.
    Motherhood is awesome.  It's so much better than I ever could have imagined!  I love watching Madeline grow and seeing her become her own little person.
    And becauseI love pictures of my baby so much.....here are a few!!
    Her shirt says Crib Potato
    My little chub!
    I think she's pooping

  • Maddie's birth story....disclaimer inside!

    Current mood:busy
    This is Madeline's birth story.  I wrote it down so that one day my baby can read it and see what I went though to bring her into the world.  I also had some people who have asked me about it and rather than tell it over and over again, they can just read it if they want.  If you don't want to know this much information about me or things that are involved in the child birthing process…..please do not read. 

    Everything started on the evening of Monday, September 11th.  I was admitted into the hospital around 5:30 pm put into a labor and delivery room and went over tons of paperwork.  I changed into a hospital gown and my doc came in to do an exam and to insert a Foley bulb into my cervix.  Imagine the balloons that mines and clowns use to make balloon animals and that is what the Foley bulb looked like.  One end (the end that was in my cervix) was blown up into a little round bulb, and the other end stayed long and skinny.  I was still only dilated 1 centimeter and 80% effaced…..no progress….poo.  Doc made one attempt to insert the bulb and failed, and on the second try said he "thought" that it was in correctly.  All the while, I am lying in stirrups extremely uncomfortable and having more people look at my vagina than I felt was truly necessary.  I also had some blood drawn and had an IV inserted into a vein in my hand…..which hurt because the nurse had to do it 3 times before she actually found a vein that she didn't collapse.  My Dr. finished and took off and Dan and I were left to our own devices.  We had already missed dinner and there isn't much to do in a hospital, so we watched some TV and went for a walk around the hospital in hopes of helping the process along with gravity.  Imagine me in a hospital gown…..because they made me wear it even though I wasn't in labor or anything….walking around with no pants on and the long end of the Foley bulb hanging down between my legs.  Needless to say it was an uncomfortable and embarrassing walk.  The nurse came in and checked the bulb at 11:30 pm to make sure that it was still in and after ascertaining that it was, she gave me some Ambien to help me sleep and Dan and I went to bed.  Let me just say that Ambien is fabulous and in our hospital room where there was a monitor that beeped all the time, I didn't hear anything and slept like a baby.

    The next morning, Tuesday, September 12th, the nurse came in at 6:00 am to wake me up and since my Ambien worked so well, I wouldn't wake up, so she came back at 6:30 am.  Dan and I got up and showered.  I was told that I was not allowed to eat anything from midnight until after I gave birth which I thought was ridiculous because if I was going to go through all of the work that is labor, I needed some fuel.  So, Dan and I had brought food in the night before and I snuck a piece of bread with peanut butter on it while the nurse was out of our room.  At 7:00 am the nurse removed the Foley bulb and did an exam and told us that I was still only 1 centimeter and it looked like the bulb had not done anything.  She hooked me up to a fetal monitor and a blood pressure cuff that took my blood pressure every 30 minutes.  I had to have the monitoring because they were inducing me, otherwise I would have been able to walk around the hospital to help with my labor.  The nurse also hooked me up to a pitocin drip to get my labor started.  At 7:30 am my doctor came and did another exam and said that I was 2 centimeters dilated and while he was doing the exam I felt him poking something and asked what he was doing and after I felt a gush of water coming out he told me that he had just broken my water.  I was so upset and wished that he had told me before hand that he was going to do that rather than telling me after the fact because if my water was not broken I still had the option of leaving the hospital to try and labor naturally at home but with my water broken I had to have the baby within 24 hours. 

    My contractions started around 7:45 am and were pretty mild.  Some people had said that contractions feel like period cramps, but I didn't think they did at all.  Dan and I started watching movies and my mom arrived at around 9:00 am to hang out with us.  My contractions were 3 minutes apart and lasting about 1 minute but they were irregular and some were strong and some were mild.  I used the restroom a couple of times which was quite difficult with the monitors and having to cart the IV stand around with me, plus trying to pee while having a contraction was not fun!  We continued to watch movies and chat while my contractions got stronger and closer together and at 12:00 pm the nurse came in and did an exam and told us that I was 3 centimeters.  I started to feel really discouraged because the pain was getting pretty bad due to the pitocin and I wasn't progressing very quickly.  I decided to get something to help with the pain and the nurse gave me stadol.  She said that it would work quickly and boy did it!  I remember laughing hysterically and telling Dan and my mom that I could understand why drugs are illegal but why people would like to take them because the stadol was fantastic.  I then started crying hysterically and laughing still all at the same time.  My mom told me that I kept saying that my head felt full.  Who knows!  I could still feel the contractions and it still hurt, but I was so out of it, I didn't care.  About 8 minutes after getting the stadol, I fell asleep. 

    I slept for about 3 hours and when I woke up the stadol had worn off and the contractions were killer!  I got up to try and walk around the room a little bit because laying flat on my back seemed to make the contractions hurt more but the nurse came in because I was not able to have the fetal monitors on while walking around and she said that I had to have the monitors on.  So, I got hooked back up and tried sitting in a rocking chair and leaning forward over a table, but the fetal monitor was not getting an accurate reading so the nurse came back in and told me that if I was going to sit in the rocking chair I had to sit straight up.  I tried that for a while, but sitting straight up did not help with the pain at all.  I got back into bed and tried lying on my side to help with the contractions….again the fetal monitor could not get an accurate read out and the nurse came back in and told me that I had to lie on my back.  So basically I was in pretty bad pain and my options were to either lay flat on my back, or to sit up straight in a chair…..not much to help me get through the pain of labor and my labor was pretty intense because pitocin makes contractions come fast and furiously rather than laboring naturally where contractions are more gradual.  My contractions were now right on top of each other with no break in between and my nurse told me that I could get more stadol although it might not work a second time or an epidural if I wanted it.  I was trying really hard not to get an epidural so I said another stadol.  At 4:00pm she did an exam and I was dilated to 5 centimeters and she hooked me up to more stadol…..and in fact it did not work.  By this time I was not getting any relief from the constant pain and I was feeling pretty bummed that I was only 5 centimeters and didn't know how I was going to get through the last 5 centimeters when it was soo painful.  I ordered an epidural and 15 minutes later at 4:15 pm the anesthesiologist arrived to insert the epidural.  I was really scared and was worried because I was told that I was not allowed to move yet I was having back to back contractions and my body was moving on it's own…..thought I would become paralyzed.  The epidural was so easy and I didn't even feel it.  People talk about it being so painful and crying during it, but just the thought of the pain relief the epidural was going to bring made it totally easy.  My mom left at this time to go back to our home to feed the dogs.

    After epidural was administered my nurse inserted a catheter so I wouldn't have to get up to potty and also did another exam.  I was 6 centimeters.  The pain was a little bit better but I could totally still feel every contraction and they were still painful.  Within 10 minutes the contractions got worse and I felt the need to push (it felt a lot like needing to poop) we called the nurse in and she did another exam and I was fully dilated.  I had gone from 6 to 10 centimeters in 10 minutes!  Hooray.  The nurse told me to not push and to let the pressure build up…..I now know it was because she needed to call the doctor to drive over to the hospital to help deliver.  I tried my best to hold off on pushing but it was hard!  Contractions were still killer and brought on urge to push every time.  My doctor arrived and got me set up into stirrups and my nurse and a baby nurse were all congregated around my legs.  They told me to push the first time and said that I was a good pusher and then started to talk amongst themselves about hospital stuff.  I could feel everything and knew when to push and would start on my own, and then the Doctor and nurses would stop talking and watch me push and then go back to talking.  The pushing was the easiest part because while I was pushing the contractions went away and I didn't hurt and because I knew I was so close to seeing my baby, I got a second wind and had lots of energy to push.  Dan was really good about cheering me on and in 40 minutes I pushed Madeline out!  She was 8 pounds, 7 ounces and was born at 5:43 pm.  Her apgar scores were 9 and 10!  At one point they asked me if I wanted a mirror to be able to see her coming out and I said no because I just wanted to push and get it over with and didn't want to have to wait for them to set up the mirror.  They also asked me if I wanted to reach down and touch her and pull her out and I again said no, because I just wanted to get her out.  I was all business!  My mom came back at 6:00 pm after feeding the dogs and as she was walking down the hallway to my hospital room, she heard a baby crying and figured it was someone else who had given birth.  Boy was she surprised when she got to my room and discovered that I had given birth in the hour that she was gone feeding the dogs!  Haha.

    Looking back there were things that I liked and disliked about my birthing experience.  I wish that I would have been able to walk around and try different pain management techniques during labor but having been induced and basically strapped to the bed, it was not possible.  At the time I wished that I didn't have the epidural but right after delivery and even today I am really glad that I did.  It helped me to relax and I finished dilating really quickly after it was administered.  If I had not had the epidural, the possibility of me having had a much longer labor, or a c-section would have been much greater. (my doctor told me the day after I delivered that he thought for sure I was going to have a c-section because I was progressing so slowly)  And I still felt everything even after the epidural, I could still feel the contractions and I could still feel when I needed to push and how I needed to push.  This experience has taught me that you can plan out as much as you can and things still may not happen the way that you want or had planned.  Every birth experience is different and you just have to go with the flow.  The final result will hopefully be a healthy beautiful baby and it doesn't matter so much which road you take through the journey.  

    P.S.  I did not poop on the delivery table!  Yeah me!

  • Big Mistake

    Current mood:cranky
    Tonight we went to the fair.  Let me start out by saying that I was excited about the idea of getting out of the house and being entertained by everything that is the fair.....oh, and eating too!  I have always loved the Del Mar fair in San Diego and hoped that the fair in Raleigh would be equally as great.  The evening got off to a good start although we left the house an hour later than I wanted to.  As we were driving there and got close we noticed that all of the freeway exits were completely bumper to bumper and no one was moving.  I won't bore you with all of the details, but  I will say that our entire evening took five and a half hours and we were only at the fair for 1 of those hours......getting to the fair and leaving the fair were HORRIBLE.....there was so much traffic!!  I have also never seen an outdoor event that was so crowded, and I worked at Disneyland for 2 years!!  Inside the fair you could barely walk because there were so many people inside.....it felt like we were all cattle and had to inch our way around.  I wore Maddie in a snugglie on my chest and had people bumping into me left and right. 
    I was so excited for fair food and we ended up only having a corn dog and some cheesy fries because most of the lines were ridiculously long and on top of that I got sick from the food.  Not throw up sick, but I felt like I was gonna and now Madeline has gas and is a big cranky pot and it's more than likely from the greasy food that I ate that I didn't even really enjoy!  As we were leaving around 8:30, there were still huge lines outside of the fair of people wanting to go in and there were cars all backed up trying to find places to park.  And a crazy thing.....cars were parked EVERYWHERE.....they were randomly on the side of the road, in ditches, parked on the grassy areas of the freeway on ramps and off ramps, they were parked in the center dividers on the roads surrounding the fair.  I couldn't believe it.  It was also totally loud with people yelling in microphones everywhere and it was really cold out and I worried that my baby was freezing.  All in all a pretty bad idea.  But at least now we know.  I don't think that I ever need to go back to the fair here in Raligh again.  And if next year you find me writing about wanting to go.......kick me in the head and tell me it's a bad idea!  lol. 
    The picture below was taken after 2 hours in the car trying to get close enough to the fair to park......I am still in pretty good spirits hoping that the fair will be enjoyable......also, notice the cute little baby attached to me.....that's the best part of the picture!

  • Tub time No. 2

    Current mood:happy
    Today we did appempt no. 2 at the big girl bath tub.  It was much less tramatic for all involved!  Maddie liked being in the water and havign it poured on her, but did not like at the end when I washed her hair.  But she only started crying when the shampoo was rinsed off.....what a big girl.  She handled the experience so much better than last time and it made me feel a lot better that I was not tramatizing her for life or making her freeze.  All in all a good time and I know that it will only get better as we continue doing it.  If she is anything like her Mama, once we get to bath toys she won't ever want to leave the tub!  lol. 


  • Snore fest

    Current mood:satisfied
    I had quite a night of sleeping last night with my baby on one side of me snoring and my husband on the other side of me snoring.  How did I get stuck in the middle of that fun? 
    We're going to the fair today and I am excited.  What other time of the year can you eat anything you could possibly imagine fried?  The new thing they have is fried coca cola......I'll let ya know how that is......although it sounds pretty weird to me.
    Well I'm off.....I love lazy weekend mornings.  My husband, baby and a cup of coffee.....what could be better?
     Happy Saturday!!
  • Heaven sent papasan chair!

    Current mood:chipper
    I have joined a Moms group!!  Yesterday was the first meeting that I went to and I had a great time.  Most of the moms there are around the same age as I am and most of them have more than one kid.....I couldn't even imagine that for myself right now! lol.  There were crafts for the kids old enough to do them and a police officer came and talked to us about child safety.....that was kinda lame becasue she didn't tell me anything that I didn't already know.  It was nice to get out of the house and to be around other women who are going through the same things that I am.  Madeline is the youngest baby there but I'm sure it won't be that way for long.  This Moms group is a nation wide club and they have something going on every day during the week that I can choose to attend if I want.  Same age play groups, book club get togethers, cooking evenings, moms night out, trips to museums and family events.  They are having a fun fall event with hay rides, pumpkin carving, crafts etc.....I know Maddie is too young for that, but it will be a great group to be involved in for when she is a little older.  I can't wait to get more involved and to make some friends.  Dan and I have moved around so much in the last couple of years that we haven't really made friends, and while I was pregnant it felt like we were in a transition state where it was hard to make new friends cause we didn't fit in with the couples with kids yet, and we didn't fit in with the young married couples cause most of them were going out and partying and drinking which we couldn't do.  But now that we've had Madeline, purchased our home and are settled and NOT moving again, I am so ready to meet people and make some friends!!
    We have also found a church that we are pretty excited about.  We have yet to attend though.  The plan was to go last Sunday, but Saturday night was pretty wicked with the baby and it just wasn't happening Sunday morning.  But, this week it's on.  We are going to attend come hell or high water.  The church is called Clevelnad Community Church and I've checked out their website and it seems like a really cool church and it meets my basic requirements for a church which are:
    1. Young people must attend....I do not want to be a member of a church with all old people. 
    2. There must be a praise band.....I know that hymns have their place in church history, but I feel that is where they should stay.  I want to be moved and lifted up and old stuffy hymns just don't do that for me. 
    3. The pastor must have a sense of humor....the pastor of Cleveland has his own blog and seems very jolly.  
    4. Sermons must be relevent to our generation......I don't want to be preached to about my sin all the time.....I know I'm a sinner, but learning about God and how his word fits into my life in 2006 is much more interesting than being condemend every Sunday. 
     5. There needs to be more than 25 people who attend the church......don't get me wrong, I like cozy situations but I also like my privacy and don't want everyone at chucrch to know EVERYTHING about my life. 
    6. There needs to be Sunday school classes for kids and youth groups for Jr. High and High School aged kids.  I was very involved with my church and youth groups growing up and it enriched my life and kept me out of the bad stuff that kids that age do.  It was a fun, safe place for me to be and was were I met my core group of friends growing up.....I want that for my children!
    So, that's it.....although it is a lot to ask for, I do feel like this church can offer all of these things and more!  I am very excited about trying it out...now all we have to do is get Maddie to sleep well Saturday night.
    I'm sure that those of you who look at my pictures regularly have seen a fuzzy looking chair that Madeline is sitting in.  It's in the picture below.  I need to publish props for this chair.  It is a vibrating, music playing papasan chair for the babies....I think it's Fisher Price, but this chair was sent to us from Heaven!  For anyone who has a new baby, or thinking about having a baby, BUY THIS CHAIR!!!!  We don't use the music all that often, but the vibrating is fantastic!  We can stick Maddie in the chair and on most days she will relax and fall asleep.  It's cozy and has a built in blanket and keeps her somewhat upright which seems to help her with gas.  I love this chair and after last night when she was up every 2 hours to eat and having a rough time I put the chair up on the bed this morning where Dan usually sleeps (after he left for work) and stuck her in it with the paci and she slept for another 3 hours right next to me.  Hooray for more sleep!  This papasan chair is a very good investment and I'm glad I bought it. 
    Ducky day....she looks like and elf! lol.
  • The amazing enormous baby!!

    Current mood:tired
    Today my precious baby is one month old.  I can't believe that a month has already gone by.....I know I've said this before, but it really does feel like I was pregnant just the other day, and in the hospital giving birth to her yesterday.  It seems like so much has happened in this one month and at the same time very little has happened.  Maddie has made gigantic steps in development and yet in the scheme of life it's such a small amount of progress compared to what she will accomplish throughout her life.
    Today we took my little baby to her Dr. so that she could get her one month weigh in. Since I am breastfeeding, I wanted to make sure that she was gaining weight appropriately since I don't really know how much is going in.  I can tell that she is gaining weight because she looks chubbier than she did at birth and clothes are already starting to not fit, but you know....I wanted to know.  Dan and I both guessed at what her weight would be.  Dan guessed 9 pounds 12 ounces and I guessed 9 pounds 13 ounces and then changed my mind to 10 pounds.  Well.......at her weigh in where she was wearing nothing, not even a diaper, she weighed 11 pounds 10 ounces!!!!  Holy freaking enormous baby!  We could not believe it!!  At birth she weighed 8 pounds 7 ounces and a week later at her Dr. appt. she was 8 pounds 4 ounces, so.....in 3 weeks she gained 3 pounds 6 ounces!!!  And ignorant people say that babies don't thrive as well on breast milk....HA.  So, we don't have anything to worry about with that.
    She has been fussier this week than she had ever been before.  I don't know if it's just an off week, or if she is getting more of a personality and does not like going to sleep or being asleep, or if she is getting a little bit of colic.  Dan says that it is not colic, but I'm not sure yet.  I hope that it's not, because that will make my life a lot more difficult (lack of sleep & fussy baby all day long) and Maddie looks miserable when she is crying and unhappy.  I feel so bad for her.....you'd think that if God could make babies as perfect as they are, he could go one step further and give them better intestinal tracts right off the bat so they wouldn't have to deal with the yuckie gas that they all seem to get.  Hopefully the couple of bad days that we've had this week are just a fluke and that serenity and sleep are in my near future!
    Happy one month!  Here is a picture of my chubster.  P.S. This is the last time that she will be wearing the cute cow outfit......it is getting too short for her.  Boo hoo.

  • Grumpus butt!!

    Current mood:okay
    Today my little angel has been a total grumpus!!  I do not know what the deal is....she is so cranky and nothing seems to help.  She doesn't want to be in her vibrating chair, or her swing, and we tried tummy time and wiggle time under her activity mat and she doesn't want to do that either.  She wants her pacifier and then she does not want her pacifier.  She is soo tired and keeps yawning but she WILL NOT go to sleep.  Every time she gets close to sleep, she flails her arms around and wakes herself up.  I tried wearing her in the sling and she fell asleep for a little bit but as soon as I take her out so that I can do something productive around the house, she wakes up and flips out.  And it's not that she is just whining....she is full on crying, and it breaks my heart and also drives me insane.  What do you do with a cranky baby when nothing seems to be working?
    She is even cranky in her sleep.....what little sleep she has gotten today.  HELP!!  Insane mommy trapped with grumpus!

  • rainy wedding day

    Current mood:exhausted
    Today we had a big outting.  We went to the wedding of our friends Ivy and Paul.  We met up with Dan's family and went out to lunch in Fuquay and then drove to the wedding which was being held on a farm of sorts.  I say of sorts, because I have no idea what kind of farm it was, but the wedding was in a barn.  I felt really bad for Ivy because we have had really nice weather in the 80s all week and then yesterday the sky started leaking and the temp dropped to the upper 50s and today was no different.  Every girl dreams of her wedding day and I don't think any of the dreams involve rain or dark skies.  It turned out okay, but the outdoor wedding had to be moved inside.  It was really nice seeing the family and having the baby out and about.  She looked so cute in the little dress that we bought especially for the occasion and she was such a good girl all night!!  But I must say that it feels good to be home.  I was so tired most of the day and also cold because it was gross outside all day and us women folk wore dresses and open toed shoes which makes it even colder.....I changed into comfy pajama pants and fuzzy socks as soon as I got home.  I am tired and ready to go to bed.  As soon as we can get little miss Maddie to sleep I am going to fall into a coma.  Below is a picture of Madeline sleeping in her pretty dress from tonight.....she looks grumpy!!  lol. 
    P.S. Maddie slept from 11:30 till 5:00 last night!!  Woo Hoo for a 5 and a half hour stretch.....and let's pray for more of those nights!

  • Week 3

    Current mood:loved
    October 2, 2006

    Precious baby,

    As week three comes to a close I am having a hard time remembering what it was like without you in my life.  At this point my life revolves around you and your needs and I can't imagine it being any other way.  We still wake up together 2-3 times every night so that you can nurse and I spend much of my day with you in my arms doing everything I can to keep you happy.  You are starting to be awake more in the day and actually sleeping better at night.  It takes much less time for me to get you to fall back asleep after nursing at night than it used to!!  Hooray for more sleep…..although you still fight falling asleep and get pretty mad.  You take after your mommy in the fact that you also get really mad when you are waking up.  You grunt and squirm and arch your back and try with all of your might to stay sleeping even though your body is trying to wake up!  It's pretty funny.

    You took your first trip to visit Daddy at work this week.  He took you out of your car seat and walked you through the offices at his work and introduced you to a lot of people.  Everyone of course thought you were adorable (which you are) and a couple of the guys even held you.  Daddy was really proud and we both enjoyed showing you off.  Mommy also had her very own outing with you alone to Wal-Mart.  I hadn't been out of the house when it was just the two of us and I was a little nervous at first, but we did great!  You slept most of the time that we were shopping and I got you home without having to feed you in Wal-Mart.  It was a great accomplishment!

    Daddy learned that sometimes when he is changing you, he needs to duck and take cover!  You had explosive poop and made a huge mess the other day.  You got it all over Daddy's shirt, the changing table, the armoire that your clothes are in and even some poop on the wall across from your changing table.  It was REALLY funny and Daddy and I could not believe what a mess you made.  I was secretly thrilled that you made such a mess while Daddy was changing you and not while I was changing you…..good girl!!  You are definitely good at making poop and pee and keep us on our toes while we change your diaper…..you still like to wait until the diaper is off to decide that you want to pee which is a lot of fun for us.

    You had your first big girl bath this week.  Since your belly button stump fell off, it was okay to submerge you into the tub.  Daddy and I filled your tub up with warm water and got you undressed and I tried to put you in the water very slowly so that you could get used to it, but it was hard to do.  I'm not really sure how you felt about the bath.  You definitely didn't love it, but you also didn't cry.  You kicked your legs a little bit and made constant baby noises, but I think you were too startled and surprised that you were in water to figure out how you felt about it.  Mommy had a hard time with the whole thing and thought that you were freezing and wanted to get you out as soon as possible.  We didn't even wash your hair or use soap.  But it was the first time and we got that experience under out belts and the next time should be easier and hopefully you'll learn to enjoy it. 

    We had your first official tummy time this week.  Mommy laid you down in your crib on your tummy and you laid there with your face planted flat on the mattress.  I of course freaked out and removed you from tummy time since you did not lift your head at all.  I later tried propping you on your tummy on the boppy so that you didn't have your face flat on the mattress and you did much better.  You lifted your head a little bit and I lowered my face so that you could look at it and have something to focus on.  I didn't keep you on your tummy for very long because it still freaked me out and made me sad that you had the options to either strain and lift your neck, or have your face flat looking down.  We'll keep working on it though and try a little more every day so that you can learn the motor skills you need to roll over and push yourself up.

    Overall we had a great week.  I can't believe how big you are getting and how fast you are growing.  You are getting more baby fat and looking very cute and kissable!  It's hard to believe that in one week you are going to be one month old…..it seems like yesterday we were in the hospital.  I love you so much and can't wait to see what unfolds this week.

    Love always,
    Mommy 



  • One Year

    Current mood:thankful
    Today marks the one year anniversary of my wedding to my best friend.  One year ago today we were in California with all our friends and family vowing our love and commitment to each other.  Life has changed so much in this year, we found out we were having a baby, bought a house, I stopped working, and gave birth to my miracle!  So many changes, but the one constant is our love for each other and the deep friendship that we have.  This has been a wonderful first year and I look forward to every year to come.  I love you honey...here's our song!

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