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famous schmamous
Current mood:It's amazing how much celebrity news you can miss out on when you don't check the blogs for a couple weeks. Apparently Jamie Lynn Spears has delivered her baby girl, and annoyingly she has named her Maddie. Dontcha hate when famous people name their kids the same name that your kid has? Because inevitably someone is going to meet my Maddie and think that I named her after Jamie Lynn's kid.....even though my Maddie is almost 2 years older. Hmph.tired
In other celebrity new......while my parents were here last week I was watching mindless TV a.k.a keeping up with the Kardashians and my dad informed me that we are in fact related to the Kardashian family. Yep, I share blood lines with the bubble butted spoiled brat Kim Kardashian and family. I guess my great grandma's sister had 3 kids a girl who no one remembers the name of, and two boys, one named Art and one named Robert. Art had a son whom he named Robert (Kardashian) who was the father of the Kardashian girls. So, it's not the most direct of relations, but it is definitely there. I wonder if they would accept me with open arms if I showed up on their door step? I'm guessing no. But maybe I'll try and extort some money outta them....goodness knows Kim Kardashian has enough moola floating around after the settlement from her "adult movie." lol
Well, thats all I have to share for now. Oh, and Charlotte weighed 13.5 pounds yesterday!! My chunky monkey.
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My first morning alone (pics included)
Current mood:Today is my first day taking care of two kids all by myself. My parents left yesterday morning, but Dan was off so I had him around all day. I am officially out numbered!! So far things have gone well. It seems that Charlotte is starting to get herself on a schedule which actually works for me. Yesterday she took a nap from 6:00 to 7:30 which gave me enough time to feed Maddie and give her a shower (her first shower ever!) then Maddie went to bed at 8:00, Charlotte nursed until 9:00 and then she went to bed too. She still wakes up at night, but the chunks of sleep are getting longer. Charlotte woke up at 6:30 this morning, Maddie was up at 6:50. Maddie drank her milk in our bed while I nursed Charlotte and we all watched Blue's Clues. I got Maddie her breakfast (banana and donut holes left over from yesterday) while Charlotte fussed off and on. 8:15 Charlotte fell asleep and I put her down in the co-sleeper which gave me time to get ready (I have a chiropractor appt this morning...should be interesting with 2 kids!) and now I am blogging. Charlotte is still asleep almost 45 minutes now, and next I will get Maddie dressed and get the diaper bag stocked up. I feel like I am doing relatively well for my first morning alone, and the fact that I am daring to venture out all on my own is big too!blustery
Things have been going well overall. I have good days and bad days.....mostly good days. I get stressed at times when I feel like I am juggling too many balls all at once, or when I don't get enough sleep. I'm going to try not to nap during the day anymore becuase it makes it harder for me to fall asleep at night, and since Charlotte is sleeping so well at night I don't want to waste precious sleeping time lying awake because I napped. Maddie is slowly getting past her naughty for attention stage although she almost broke my glasses this morning, but I don't think she was trying to get attention....she just wanted to wear them, and of course I was nursing so it wasn't the quickest response on my part. I know that she has had a lot of fun with my mom and dad here.....she discovered corn on the cob, played in the rain and went on walks every evening! I know that she will miss grandma and grandpa, but we bought web cams while they were here and so she'll be able to talk to them and see them on the computer.
Charlotte is getting really big. Dan and I measured her last night and she is 23.5 inches long. She has grown 2 inches in 4 weeks. I will try and weigh her at my chiro appt this morning and see if she has gained any....although she feels like she has! For right now we have decided not to go to the doctor for the well baby check ups which is why we have been weighing and measuring Charlotte ourselves. The only thing they do at the doctors office is weigh and measure her and ask me how things are going. I know things are going fine, she is growing like a weed and the only thing they get from the well baby check ups is SICK from other sick kids germs! When my girls are sick, we'll go to the doctor.....until then we are gonna measure them at home and weigh them at places that have scales like my chiropractor and friend's houses.
Well, I best be off. My back needs to be attended to. Later gators!
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Hurry up and blog
Current mood:Okay, so I have a minute.....literally a minute! lol I wish that I could get on and blog more, but it's a seriously low priority right now. All in all things are going well. I have a pretty easy baby on my hands. I remember at 3 weeks Maddie started this crying from 5-9 in the evening thing for 3 or 4 weeks and was impossible to console.....Charlotte hastn't started anything like that so I'm guessing that it isn't going to happen, and I'm pretty sure that since she will be 4 weeks tomorrow, we have also passed the period when colic starts! Yeah for us!! Everything is about nursing and sleeping, and pooping I guess. Charlotte might have slightly immature intestines because pooping is quite an ordeal, and she cries whenever it's that time. I can't believe how chubby the girl is getting.....Dan weighed himself while holding her, and then weighed himself without holding her and it seems that last week when she was 3 weeks old, she weighed 11.5 pounds! Holy cow! Breast milk is good for babies! lolcontent
I am not in such top form. I had a problem with my back right at the end of pregnancy where a shooting pain went down my left leg. I had bad back laobr while delivering Charlotte and the shooting pain went away for about 2 weeks while my tail bone hurt. Well, the tail bone pain went away and now the lower back pain and shooting pain down my leg is back and I can barely walk at times. I've been going to a chiropractor for a little over a week now and am feeling a bit better every visit, but after doing x-rays of my pelvis and back we've discovered that I have 2 fractures in my last vertebrae, an uneven pelvis, a bulging disc and my spine has a slight curve to the right. My doc thinks that some of these problems I've had since I was young, and some were caused or at least irritated by two pregnancies and child births in 21 months. So, I may have a lot of work ahead of me to get what I can back to normal. But for now it hurts to sit, and lay and walk and stand.....pretty much everything hurts without Advil!
Maddie is doing well although she is still testing us. Yesterday she got into our potato bin and threw potatoes all over the kitchen and living room. It was kinda funny so she didn't get in trouble, but it's things like that she is trying to get attention with. We have been working with time out a lot more consistently and it seems to be working. We'll see. My mom is here through Tuesday and I have really been enjoying her company and help! I don't know what I'm going to do without her. Right now she is working on making new cushions for our couch....we bought new pillows and fabric and I am so excited to see how they turn out. She is also making Maddie a cute little sundress, I love that she is so good with a sewing machine.
Well, I really do need to go. Dan is harassing me about getting off the computer so he can go outside and wash the cars. If I want a clean car I better sign off. Till next time.....whenever that may be.
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Happy Father’s Day
Current mood:You are a hero for two little girls. You read stories and make forts out of blankets and pillows. You provide bath time entertainment with boat sounds and made up songs. You are the king of cuddly couch napping. You are the tickle monster, the pusher of swings, and the one who gives rides on your shoulders. You get smiles first thing in the morning, and tears when you walk out the front door. You are comfort and love and so much more. God has blessed us with our little girls, but they are the ones who are truly blessed to have a Daddy and friend like you!Happy Father's Day!!
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Comparison
Current mood:I was going through some new pictures that I have of Charlotte and noticed that there was one outfit that she was wearing that Maddie wore at about the same age and so I decided to post the pics so I could see the difference between my girls.cranky
This is Maddie at 4 weeks old
This is Charlotte at almost 3 weeks old.
I had thought when Charlotte was first born that she looked somewhat like Maddie, but the more she grows and fills out I'm realizing that she looks nothing like her sister.....well, occasionally when she is sleeping she looks like her, but thats it. Well, thats all I have time for.....the little one is crying to be fed and the big one is crying because it is nearly bedtime and I am on the computer. No free time for Mama anymore! lol Peace out!
Sunday, June 1, 2008
June 2008
Friday, May 30, 2008
Just a little free time
Well, we are now officially a family of 4. I've been wanting to blog for a couple of days now, but it just hasn't happened. Currently Dan is outside playing with Maddie and Charlotte is taking a little snooze in her pack and play......that leaves the Mama with a few minutes to herself to play around on the computer.
I feel that this time around things were/are a lot easier.....as far as the birth and recovery are concerned. I'm gonna give you the cliff notes version of the past week. We checked into the hospital on Thursday morning and after playing cards with Dan in a transition room for a couple of hours because a labor and delivery room was not available, we finally got moved and settled and I was started on pitocin. After about 8 hours of being induced and not really getting anywhere we made the decision to stop the induction, met my uterus rest overnight while we stayed in the hospital and start over in the morning. Not only did I not progress in labor on Thursday the contractions didn't even hurt....they were more like annoying cramps than contractions and we basically watched movies all day in the hospital......a wasted day as far as I'm concerned. Friday morning we got up around 5:30am when they moved us back into a labor and delivery room, I was started on pitocin around 7:00am and started having contractions right away.....but like the day before they didn't really hurt. Around 8:45 my doctor came in and broke my water and that is where the fun began! lol The contractions were fast a furious and kicked my butt. It was a LOT more painful than it was when I was in labor with Maddie. Around 12:45 I asked for an epidural because I thought I was going to die, they checked my cervix and I was 6cm dilated.....it took them about 15 minutes to get the anistesiologist to my room and ready, by the time they were doing the epidural I felt like I wanted to push, but I was too afraid to say anything because I didn't want them to stop the process and check me again only to find out that I wasn't ready and then it would delay the pain meds. So, they got the epidural in, told me it would take 15-20 minutes to take affect, I mentioned that I felt like I could push, they had me lay down, checked me and I was 10cm dilated. They called the doctor in and I started pushing at 1:21 and Charlotte was born at exactly 1:30. Yup, thats right......9 minutes of pushing and exactly 4 pushes. I was all business!! The epidural hadn't even taken affect and they didn't even get the machine that pumps the medicine into my IVplugged in before I had delivered the baby. It was basically a useless epidural except that I did get 1 stitch so it numbed me for that. Charlotte Grace was 9 pounds 2 ounces and 21.5 inches long. Her apgar score was 10 and she was bright eyed and bushy tailed after birth.
I think that because my active labor only lasted 4 1/2 hours and I only pushed for 9 minutes my recovery has been relatively easy. I didn't even have any pain medication for 24 hours after delivery and then I really only had motrin because my tail bone hurt so bad from the back labor that I had.....I think it got bruised or something during Charlotte's descent because still today almost a week later it hurts to sit for prolonged periods of time. We got released from the hospital a little over 24 hours after I had her because we didn't want to stay away from Maddie any longer than we had to, and honestly you don't get any rest in the hospital with nurses and cleaning staff and others coming into the room on a cycle. The first few nights home Charlotte had her nights and her days mixed up and I was awake for most of the night nursing and holding her, but last night we got about 6 hours of sleep and the night before that we got 7 hours with 4 and 3 hour blocks which was wonderful and very much needed. Things are going really well with the breastfeeding.....much easier than last time mainly because I've done it before and know what it is supposed to feel like, and tricks to take care of myself. Charlotte is a good eater and the only real issue we have is that she has a small mouth, and sometimes it's hard for me to get her to open up really big.....but that is something that can totally be worked on, I have to remind myself she has only been alive for 6 days!!! I am feeling good other than the tail bone and have resumed normal daily activity although there is a lot more sitting because of the nursing etc.
Things were a little weird for Maddie when we first got home, but are now back to normal. I think that it really threw her off that we were just gone on Thursday morning and that grandma was here.....she arrived late Wednesday night after Maddie had gone to bed, so she didn't even know that grandma was here until she woke up on Thursday and we weren't here. She came to the hospital twice while we were there, but they were short visits and she was sad when she left and we didn't go with her. Then we get home and I have this baby that is attached to me all the time, and I can't have her crawling all over me like she normally is because I was sore etc. It was just a bit hard for her. I've been really emotional over all the changes that have occured with Maddie. I have felt guilty that life has changed so much for her, and I've felt like a bad mom because I can't spend as much time as I normally do hanging with her, but I know it's the baby blues and that the feelings will go away in the next few weeks. The crazy wacked out hormones after child birth are really hard because you know they are ridiculous and are not true, but you can't rationalize them away until the hormones get more stabalized. I was a basketcase for a couple days, but already am feeling better and less emotional. I really don't think that Maddie minds and if she does, she won't remember these changes.....she won't remember what it was like before she had a sister, but at this point she basically could care less about Charlotte. She acknowledges that there is a baby and has come up to her and said baby twice since we've been home, but she doesn't show any interest in her. We talk to her about the baby and ask her is she hears the baby crying, or sees the baby making a face, or sticking out her tounge.....stuff like that, and she'll look but that is about it. I'm pretty okay with that and not at all interested in trying to force Charlotte upon her, they have plenty of time to get to know each other and it honestly seems better that Maddie isn't interested in the baby rather than her being too interested and trying to hold her, get to her, sit with her etc. all the time. That could be scary.
Overall things are back to normal.....except I have no idea what normal is anymore. Maddie is on her usual schedule, Dan and I are on Charlotte's schedule. Dan is home through next Tuesday when my mom arrives and she is going to be here for 3 weeks. We have food in the freezer and both my moms group and our bible study are bringing us dinners for the next week or so. My mother in law went home yesterday evening and I miss her already. She was such a great help and really lovely to have around to talk to. Oh, and she got Maddie a little pool that she is in love with!! It's a nice activity to be able to do with her where I'm not running around the yard. I guess thats it for now. I'm really happy to not be pregnant anymore and to have my new daughter. I'm excited to see her grow and watch her personality emerge. I have pictures to post, but for some reason blogger doesn't have that option working. Is anyone else having this problem or is it just me? I'll try and add some if it decides to let me.
I feel that this time around things were/are a lot easier.....as far as the birth and recovery are concerned. I'm gonna give you the cliff notes version of the past week. We checked into the hospital on Thursday morning and after playing cards with Dan in a transition room for a couple of hours because a labor and delivery room was not available, we finally got moved and settled and I was started on pitocin. After about 8 hours of being induced and not really getting anywhere we made the decision to stop the induction, met my uterus rest overnight while we stayed in the hospital and start over in the morning. Not only did I not progress in labor on Thursday the contractions didn't even hurt....they were more like annoying cramps than contractions and we basically watched movies all day in the hospital......a wasted day as far as I'm concerned. Friday morning we got up around 5:30am when they moved us back into a labor and delivery room, I was started on pitocin around 7:00am and started having contractions right away.....but like the day before they didn't really hurt. Around 8:45 my doctor came in and broke my water and that is where the fun began! lol The contractions were fast a furious and kicked my butt. It was a LOT more painful than it was when I was in labor with Maddie. Around 12:45 I asked for an epidural because I thought I was going to die, they checked my cervix and I was 6cm dilated.....it took them about 15 minutes to get the anistesiologist to my room and ready, by the time they were doing the epidural I felt like I wanted to push, but I was too afraid to say anything because I didn't want them to stop the process and check me again only to find out that I wasn't ready and then it would delay the pain meds. So, they got the epidural in, told me it would take 15-20 minutes to take affect, I mentioned that I felt like I could push, they had me lay down, checked me and I was 10cm dilated. They called the doctor in and I started pushing at 1:21 and Charlotte was born at exactly 1:30. Yup, thats right......9 minutes of pushing and exactly 4 pushes. I was all business!! The epidural hadn't even taken affect and they didn't even get the machine that pumps the medicine into my IVplugged in before I had delivered the baby. It was basically a useless epidural except that I did get 1 stitch so it numbed me for that. Charlotte Grace was 9 pounds 2 ounces and 21.5 inches long. Her apgar score was 10 and she was bright eyed and bushy tailed after birth.
I think that because my active labor only lasted 4 1/2 hours and I only pushed for 9 minutes my recovery has been relatively easy. I didn't even have any pain medication for 24 hours after delivery and then I really only had motrin because my tail bone hurt so bad from the back labor that I had.....I think it got bruised or something during Charlotte's descent because still today almost a week later it hurts to sit for prolonged periods of time. We got released from the hospital a little over 24 hours after I had her because we didn't want to stay away from Maddie any longer than we had to, and honestly you don't get any rest in the hospital with nurses and cleaning staff and others coming into the room on a cycle. The first few nights home Charlotte had her nights and her days mixed up and I was awake for most of the night nursing and holding her, but last night we got about 6 hours of sleep and the night before that we got 7 hours with 4 and 3 hour blocks which was wonderful and very much needed. Things are going really well with the breastfeeding.....much easier than last time mainly because I've done it before and know what it is supposed to feel like, and tricks to take care of myself. Charlotte is a good eater and the only real issue we have is that she has a small mouth, and sometimes it's hard for me to get her to open up really big.....but that is something that can totally be worked on, I have to remind myself she has only been alive for 6 days!!! I am feeling good other than the tail bone and have resumed normal daily activity although there is a lot more sitting because of the nursing etc.
Things were a little weird for Maddie when we first got home, but are now back to normal. I think that it really threw her off that we were just gone on Thursday morning and that grandma was here.....she arrived late Wednesday night after Maddie had gone to bed, so she didn't even know that grandma was here until she woke up on Thursday and we weren't here. She came to the hospital twice while we were there, but they were short visits and she was sad when she left and we didn't go with her. Then we get home and I have this baby that is attached to me all the time, and I can't have her crawling all over me like she normally is because I was sore etc. It was just a bit hard for her. I've been really emotional over all the changes that have occured with Maddie. I have felt guilty that life has changed so much for her, and I've felt like a bad mom because I can't spend as much time as I normally do hanging with her, but I know it's the baby blues and that the feelings will go away in the next few weeks. The crazy wacked out hormones after child birth are really hard because you know they are ridiculous and are not true, but you can't rationalize them away until the hormones get more stabalized. I was a basketcase for a couple days, but already am feeling better and less emotional. I really don't think that Maddie minds and if she does, she won't remember these changes.....she won't remember what it was like before she had a sister, but at this point she basically could care less about Charlotte. She acknowledges that there is a baby and has come up to her and said baby twice since we've been home, but she doesn't show any interest in her. We talk to her about the baby and ask her is she hears the baby crying, or sees the baby making a face, or sticking out her tounge.....stuff like that, and she'll look but that is about it. I'm pretty okay with that and not at all interested in trying to force Charlotte upon her, they have plenty of time to get to know each other and it honestly seems better that Maddie isn't interested in the baby rather than her being too interested and trying to hold her, get to her, sit with her etc. all the time. That could be scary.
Overall things are back to normal.....except I have no idea what normal is anymore. Maddie is on her usual schedule, Dan and I are on Charlotte's schedule. Dan is home through next Tuesday when my mom arrives and she is going to be here for 3 weeks. We have food in the freezer and both my moms group and our bible study are bringing us dinners for the next week or so. My mother in law went home yesterday evening and I miss her already. She was such a great help and really lovely to have around to talk to. Oh, and she got Maddie a little pool that she is in love with!! It's a nice activity to be able to do with her where I'm not running around the yard. I guess thats it for now. I'm really happy to not be pregnant anymore and to have my new daughter. I'm excited to see her grow and watch her personality emerge. I have pictures to post, but for some reason blogger doesn't have that option working. Is anyone else having this problem or is it just me? I'll try and add some if it decides to let me.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Final thoughts and such
Our house is as clean as it has ever been. There are still signs that a toddler tornado lives here, but everything is CLEAN and sparkling. We'll see how long that lasts lol. I believe that every article of clothing and piece of fabric is clean as well.....I've done like 15 loads of laundry in the last week. 4 meals have been prepared and frozen in our deep freezer for when we get home from the hospital, our dogs went to the groomer today and got their hair did (Tyson got buzzed and looks like a totally different dog) Maddie's room is complete except for the outlining of the butterflies/dragonflies on the walls but my mother in law is going to help with that this week, I baked some oatmeal chocolate chip cookies this afternoon and tonight I am going to take a long bath.
All in all we are ready.
At my OB appointment yesterday I was still only 2 centimeters dilated which I anticipated and nothing new was happening. Tomorrow morning at 5:30am we have to call the hospital and see if there is a bed open, and if there is we are gonna head out to have a baby. If there isn't a bed I am supposed to keep calling until there is one, but if noon rolls around and there still isn't anything then I will get bumped to Friday. I remember when I was delivering Maddie the labor and delivery area was so full of women in labor that some were in the hallways with screens up for privacy delivering, and I felt really bad for them. I DO NOT want to give birth in the hospital hallway, so I don't mind calling to make sure there is a bed for me lol. I'm not really feeling much of anything right now.....being sick is just making me feel exhausted. I'm not really looking forward to going through labor tomorrow, but it's not really an option, and the prize is so worth all the.....I guess labor is a good word! Haha. I was telling my friend earlier today that giving birth only lasts a day (for most women) and I can do anything for a day!!
I feel bad that we are going to sneak out in the morning and won't be there when Maddie wakes up. I hope that she handles it well. I'm kinda bummed that my mom won't be there this time to keep me company in the delivery room.....Dan is always good company, but there is just something about having your mom there! I am really curious what Charlotte is going to look like......although they are always so squished looking when they first come out, and don't look like themselves until they are about 3-4 months old, so it'll be hard to tell. I'm happy that we don't have to check into the hospital tonight to start labor tomorrow morning like we did last time because they don't let you eat at the hospital at ALL before or during labor and this way I can have breakfast before we get there (hahaha evil laugh) it's ridiculous to think that a woman is better off not eating anything during one of the physically hardest events of her life just in case she has to be put under for an emergency operation which rarely ever happens. They even got mad at me last time for sucking on sugar free life savers. pffft.
So, I'm basically really ready to get this over with. I want to have my baby and get home to Maddie and get healed up and on with life. I am really tired and ready to take my bath, watch American Idol and try to get to bed early......I have a big day tomorrow ya know! I will blog as soon as it is humanly possible. Wish me luck!
All in all we are ready.
At my OB appointment yesterday I was still only 2 centimeters dilated which I anticipated and nothing new was happening. Tomorrow morning at 5:30am we have to call the hospital and see if there is a bed open, and if there is we are gonna head out to have a baby. If there isn't a bed I am supposed to keep calling until there is one, but if noon rolls around and there still isn't anything then I will get bumped to Friday. I remember when I was delivering Maddie the labor and delivery area was so full of women in labor that some were in the hallways with screens up for privacy delivering, and I felt really bad for them. I DO NOT want to give birth in the hospital hallway, so I don't mind calling to make sure there is a bed for me lol. I'm not really feeling much of anything right now.....being sick is just making me feel exhausted. I'm not really looking forward to going through labor tomorrow, but it's not really an option, and the prize is so worth all the.....I guess labor is a good word! Haha. I was telling my friend earlier today that giving birth only lasts a day (for most women) and I can do anything for a day!!
I feel bad that we are going to sneak out in the morning and won't be there when Maddie wakes up. I hope that she handles it well. I'm kinda bummed that my mom won't be there this time to keep me company in the delivery room.....Dan is always good company, but there is just something about having your mom there! I am really curious what Charlotte is going to look like......although they are always so squished looking when they first come out, and don't look like themselves until they are about 3-4 months old, so it'll be hard to tell. I'm happy that we don't have to check into the hospital tonight to start labor tomorrow morning like we did last time because they don't let you eat at the hospital at ALL before or during labor and this way I can have breakfast before we get there (hahaha evil laugh) it's ridiculous to think that a woman is better off not eating anything during one of the physically hardest events of her life just in case she has to be put under for an emergency operation which rarely ever happens. They even got mad at me last time for sucking on sugar free life savers. pffft.
So, I'm basically really ready to get this over with. I want to have my baby and get home to Maddie and get healed up and on with life. I am really tired and ready to take my bath, watch American Idol and try to get to bed early......I have a big day tomorrow ya know! I will blog as soon as it is humanly possible. Wish me luck!
I guess thats why they call it the blues
I'm feeling a bit sad today. I realized this morning that it is my last day at home with just Maddie. It's been over 20 months of just the two of us spending the day together while Daddy is at work. Dan is taking off early this afternoon becuase I have my final OB appointment to check the ol' cervix and make all the final arrangements, and then Dan is off tomorrow and Thursday is baby day. This feels so bitter sweet to me. I am overjoyed to be having another daughter, I know that she will bring so much happiness to my life and our family, but at the same time I don't get to continue the one on one bond that I have with Maddie.....she will now have to share my time and affection. I know people do this all the time, and we'll figure it out as we go, it just seems really hard right now.....probably doesn't help that I am SUPER hormonal. (I cried through almost all of P.S. I Love You last night lol)
I'm also feeling really scared about how on earth I'm going to do this. How am I going to juggle having two kids, having the time, having the energy. I knew going into this that it wasn't going to be a walk in the park, but it seemed so far off last August that it really wasn't an issue. It's not so far off anymore and I'm really afraid that I'm going to fail. How many balls can one person juggle without one of them falling? The huge silver lining is that my mother in law is coming to help us for a week after Charlotte is born and then my mother is flying in on June 3rd and staying for 3 weeks. I am so blessed to have their willingness to help, it makes me breathe a little easier knowing that I won't be alone in the first month. Who else can I convince to come and stay for a while......maybe we can get through the first 6 months or so just rotating people in! lol
Well.....sorry for the overly emotional stuff. I was totally like this the last few days of my pregnancy with Maddie, just with different concerns. I'm a ball of tears at the drop of a hat, and I don't imagine that it's gonna end anytime in the next week or so thanks to all the lovely hormones that go along with pregnancy and child birth. Yippee. Well, I better be off......I need to eat lunch, take a short nap and shower all before 3:30 which gives me about 2 hours but really only an hour because Maddie will probably wake up at 2:30 from her nap. Wish us luck at the OB today.....hopefully everything will be a-ok and they won't want me at the hospital today!!!!
P.S. I'm still sick and generally feel like crap, so keep me in your thoughts and prayers.....I can't imagine it being much fun going through childbirth with a raging sore throat. I hope I'm on to the mucus/coughing stage before Thursday gets here!
I'm also feeling really scared about how on earth I'm going to do this. How am I going to juggle having two kids, having the time, having the energy. I knew going into this that it wasn't going to be a walk in the park, but it seemed so far off last August that it really wasn't an issue. It's not so far off anymore and I'm really afraid that I'm going to fail. How many balls can one person juggle without one of them falling? The huge silver lining is that my mother in law is coming to help us for a week after Charlotte is born and then my mother is flying in on June 3rd and staying for 3 weeks. I am so blessed to have their willingness to help, it makes me breathe a little easier knowing that I won't be alone in the first month. Who else can I convince to come and stay for a while......maybe we can get through the first 6 months or so just rotating people in! lol
Well.....sorry for the overly emotional stuff. I was totally like this the last few days of my pregnancy with Maddie, just with different concerns. I'm a ball of tears at the drop of a hat, and I don't imagine that it's gonna end anytime in the next week or so thanks to all the lovely hormones that go along with pregnancy and child birth. Yippee. Well, I better be off......I need to eat lunch, take a short nap and shower all before 3:30 which gives me about 2 hours but really only an hour because Maddie will probably wake up at 2:30 from her nap. Wish us luck at the OB today.....hopefully everything will be a-ok and they won't want me at the hospital today!!!!
P.S. I'm still sick and generally feel like crap, so keep me in your thoughts and prayers.....I can't imagine it being much fun going through childbirth with a raging sore throat. I hope I'm on to the mucus/coughing stage before Thursday gets here!
Saturday, May 17, 2008
It’s just not fair (insert whiney voice)
I am essentially 9 months pregnant and gonna have a baby in 5 days or less, and I am SICK!!! It's just not fair. My throat started hurting yesterday, I slept like poop last night, and this morning I got up at 6:00 with a cough. The weird part of that sentence was most definitely the fact that I got up at 6:00 on a weekend that Dan has off. Crazy maybe?!? NO....SICK. It seems like a cruel joke that I have to be so uncomfortable and in pain with the baby carrying and sick too. I think I'm gonna call in sick today.....oh wait, I can't call in sick to life can I? Crap! Pray for me!!!!
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Seriously?!?!?
Maddie has been in a particularly bad mood for the last couple of days. She has been whiny and testing her boundaries a LOT which equals a lot of defiance. I know that the "terrible twos" are quickly approaching us, and I expect her to be defiant to a degree, but this is just NOT my child. I was thinking that maybe she is sensing that something is happening.....maybe she can tell that we're about to go through a big life change or maybe she knows that I am in pain and a lot slower at responding with redirecting her.....maybe she is taking advantage? I mean it's nothing big that she's doing, just not listening and doing things over and over again after I tell her not to. I even tried a time out yesterday.....she sat there for it, but I have no idea if she understood what was going on. It has been a mystery.....that is until today.
So this morning I went in to get her up at 7:30 which is late for her, she is usually making noise at 6:45 and I go in and get her at 7:00. Well when I get in there she is still lying down and she barely lifts her head and starts crying and saying help, help in a totally sad voice. I get over to her and notice that her right eye is fused shut with crusty goop. I figured that she had an eye infection of some sort and got a wash cloth with warm water and cleaned all the goop out, I also too her temp and it was 101.5. She seemed fine though after I cleaned her eye although she was extra clingy for most of the morning. I called Dan at work and he proceeds to tell me that last night when he was getting her ready for bed he put vusion butt ointment on her and she reached down and touched her creamy butt and then wiped her right eye with her fingers. He wiped her hand off, but didn't think that she got any in her eye. Apparently she did. So I call the doctor to find out what the deal is with butt cream in her eye and what I need to do.....they said as long as it wasn't still seeping goo that she should be fine. I also told them about the low grade fever and they said that I should bring her in.....the two sounded unrelated and she could have something like an ear infection. (she has never, ever had an ear infection before) So, eye issue and toddler moodiness apparently not related. Maybe the fever and the mood are?
I call my mom and talk to her for a while about Maddie and her difficulties these past few days. I complain about taking her to the doctor, I don't like to take her unless it's really necessary because every time they say there isn't anything they can do, just keep her hydrated and happy and whatever it is that is wrong will run it's course.....and she HATES going to the doctor, so why even bother? Anyway, I'm still talking to my mom and I look down and Maddie has a huge wet mark on her pant leg, it looked like maybe her diaper leaked, but in a weird spot. I smell it (yeah, I know it's gross, but hey.....I'm a mom) and it's not pee. It then dawns on me that it is drool......and that much drool usually only means one thing......TEETH. I start to remember some of the tell tale signs from the last few days, like Maddie chewing on one of the couch cushions, and chewing on her sippy cup, and chewing on pretty much anything that she had in her hands. Stupid me, I even made a comment earlier this week about her reverting back to putting everything in her mouth and how she hadn't done that for months and months. So, I stick my finger in her mouth and feel around and sure enough, half of a molar is already sticking through on the upper left hand side, and I can feel the rest of the molar just waiting to make its way out. Poor baby. She has been teething all this time which is no fun and can totally explain her unusual moodiness and all around grump behavior. I didn't even consider it before today because for the first time in almost 15 months we have had a couple month break from the teething.....leave it to Maddie to get her 2 year molars 4 months early. The girl is a tooth factory.
So, not only are we dealing with trying to get the house in order and ready for a new baby, we now get the pleasure of a teething toddler. We only have the one molar that has started to come through which means that the other 3 buggers are going to rear their ugly heads in the coming weeks as well, because Maddie has NEVER just gotten one tooth at a time, she gets them all.....all at once. It's not really that bad for Dan and me because now that we know what's going on, we know how to deal with it, but I feel so bad for Maddie. I can't imagine being in pain like that (well.....at basically 9 months pregnant I guess I can imagine!) and then going through the huge change that is about to come. I hope these teeth come in fast and that we are able to find ways to alleviate the pain for her. It's kinda funny in a not at all funny kinda way that Maddie is getting her last few teeth just in time for us to have another baby who may be just like her and start teething at 3 months old. Bleh. Teeth.
So this morning I went in to get her up at 7:30 which is late for her, she is usually making noise at 6:45 and I go in and get her at 7:00. Well when I get in there she is still lying down and she barely lifts her head and starts crying and saying help, help in a totally sad voice. I get over to her and notice that her right eye is fused shut with crusty goop. I figured that she had an eye infection of some sort and got a wash cloth with warm water and cleaned all the goop out, I also too her temp and it was 101.5. She seemed fine though after I cleaned her eye although she was extra clingy for most of the morning. I called Dan at work and he proceeds to tell me that last night when he was getting her ready for bed he put vusion butt ointment on her and she reached down and touched her creamy butt and then wiped her right eye with her fingers. He wiped her hand off, but didn't think that she got any in her eye. Apparently she did. So I call the doctor to find out what the deal is with butt cream in her eye and what I need to do.....they said as long as it wasn't still seeping goo that she should be fine. I also told them about the low grade fever and they said that I should bring her in.....the two sounded unrelated and she could have something like an ear infection. (she has never, ever had an ear infection before) So, eye issue and toddler moodiness apparently not related. Maybe the fever and the mood are?
I call my mom and talk to her for a while about Maddie and her difficulties these past few days. I complain about taking her to the doctor, I don't like to take her unless it's really necessary because every time they say there isn't anything they can do, just keep her hydrated and happy and whatever it is that is wrong will run it's course.....and she HATES going to the doctor, so why even bother? Anyway, I'm still talking to my mom and I look down and Maddie has a huge wet mark on her pant leg, it looked like maybe her diaper leaked, but in a weird spot. I smell it (yeah, I know it's gross, but hey.....I'm a mom) and it's not pee. It then dawns on me that it is drool......and that much drool usually only means one thing......TEETH. I start to remember some of the tell tale signs from the last few days, like Maddie chewing on one of the couch cushions, and chewing on her sippy cup, and chewing on pretty much anything that she had in her hands. Stupid me, I even made a comment earlier this week about her reverting back to putting everything in her mouth and how she hadn't done that for months and months. So, I stick my finger in her mouth and feel around and sure enough, half of a molar is already sticking through on the upper left hand side, and I can feel the rest of the molar just waiting to make its way out. Poor baby. She has been teething all this time which is no fun and can totally explain her unusual moodiness and all around grump behavior. I didn't even consider it before today because for the first time in almost 15 months we have had a couple month break from the teething.....leave it to Maddie to get her 2 year molars 4 months early. The girl is a tooth factory.
So, not only are we dealing with trying to get the house in order and ready for a new baby, we now get the pleasure of a teething toddler. We only have the one molar that has started to come through which means that the other 3 buggers are going to rear their ugly heads in the coming weeks as well, because Maddie has NEVER just gotten one tooth at a time, she gets them all.....all at once. It's not really that bad for Dan and me because now that we know what's going on, we know how to deal with it, but I feel so bad for Maddie. I can't imagine being in pain like that (well.....at basically 9 months pregnant I guess I can imagine!) and then going through the huge change that is about to come. I hope these teeth come in fast and that we are able to find ways to alleviate the pain for her. It's kinda funny in a not at all funny kinda way that Maddie is getting her last few teeth just in time for us to have another baby who may be just like her and start teething at 3 months old. Bleh. Teeth.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
uppity update
I went to my weekly OB appointment yesterday thinking I was just gonna waltz in do the normal stuff and waltz out on my merry way. I was wrong. My doc came in and we discussed the "plan." And without going into a ton of detail.....because there is a TON of details.....we sat and talked things through for a good 45 minutes to an hour.....and unless I go into labor on my own in the next 9 days, I am scheduled to be induced next Thursday. I really didn't want to have this baby early, but 4 days isn't too early and I believe that it's the best thing to do with the circumstnaces that I have. After feeling anxious all day yesterday and asking Dan a gazillion hypothetical questions I feel much better about the whole thing today. It probably doesn't hurt that I am in pretty constant pain in my nether regions......makes the idea of having Charlotte a little early seem lovely! And for anyone who remembers how tramatic my first cervical check was with Maddie and how painful it was......this time around it wasn't bad at all, I think the pain of last time had a lot to do with the unknown and having not ever been through something like that.....at this point a lot more painful stuff has gone on down there, so it was easy breezy. For all of you who want the cold hard facts lol, I am almost 2 centimeters dilated and as of this morning my -we'll just call it my plug is exiting. So, I have 9 days until scheduled "B" day but I may very well have this baby before then......although hopefully not before this weekend because we have some major plans to deep clean the house and finish up all the loose projects we have yet to complete.
Maddie's bedroom is thisclose to being done. Her bunk beds are up, we bought a mattress yesterday.....still need one for the top bunk, but it can wait a little bit, her bedding is currently in the dryer and is going to be put on the bed this morning. Her dressers are painted with new hardware installed and in the room after many different locations. (thanks to Dan) Her curtain rod and valance are up and yesterday Dan installed 3 cute white shelves. All we have left to do is mount this big mirror on the wall that Maddie can play dress up in, screw in a coat hanger and finish outlining the butterflies and dragon flies on the walls. I might also want to find a few accessories to put around her room and on the shelves we put up, but that can certainly wait. I really want to get her one of these butterflies night light lamp or butterfly night lamp because I think they are really pretty and would make a great night light for her in her new big girl room. But it feels so nice to be rounding the corner on this project.....it seems like we have been working on it forever! Once it's complete I'll take some pics and post them.
Today I am going to be working on moving Maddie's clothes from her nursery into her new big girl room. I am also working on washing and folding 3 large trash bags full of baby clothes size 0-6/9 months and they will be put away in the nursery awaiting Charlotte's arrival. I am also going to slowly be working on packing my things and necessary baby things for the hospital.....ya never know, tomorrow could be the day and I need to be prepared! lol Some sweeping might be in the mix as might some bathroom cleaning. I feel like I am in warp speed and ready to kick butt and get all this stuff done and then I stand up and wince in pain and am slammed back to reality that there is only so much that I can do at this point in my pregnancy. I need to take things slowly and take breaks frequently because we did some major picking up, vacuuming, laundry etc. yesterday evening and I had a hard time falling asleep last night because my back hurt so bad and I had a shooting pain going down my right leg......maybe a baby laying on a nerve? Anyway.....trying to be productive today without overdoing it. If anyone wants to come over and help, I will gladly accept the company and the help! lol
Alright, I best be off.....too much to do. And to recap, at the very latest Dan and I will have a new baby by next Thursday May 22nd. Sounds like a good birthday to me!
Maddie's bedroom is thisclose to being done. Her bunk beds are up, we bought a mattress yesterday.....still need one for the top bunk, but it can wait a little bit, her bedding is currently in the dryer and is going to be put on the bed this morning. Her dressers are painted with new hardware installed and in the room after many different locations. (thanks to Dan) Her curtain rod and valance are up and yesterday Dan installed 3 cute white shelves. All we have left to do is mount this big mirror on the wall that Maddie can play dress up in, screw in a coat hanger and finish outlining the butterflies and dragon flies on the walls. I might also want to find a few accessories to put around her room and on the shelves we put up, but that can certainly wait. I really want to get her one of these butterflies night light lamp or butterfly night lamp because I think they are really pretty and would make a great night light for her in her new big girl room. But it feels so nice to be rounding the corner on this project.....it seems like we have been working on it forever! Once it's complete I'll take some pics and post them.
Today I am going to be working on moving Maddie's clothes from her nursery into her new big girl room. I am also working on washing and folding 3 large trash bags full of baby clothes size 0-6/9 months and they will be put away in the nursery awaiting Charlotte's arrival. I am also going to slowly be working on packing my things and necessary baby things for the hospital.....ya never know, tomorrow could be the day and I need to be prepared! lol Some sweeping might be in the mix as might some bathroom cleaning. I feel like I am in warp speed and ready to kick butt and get all this stuff done and then I stand up and wince in pain and am slammed back to reality that there is only so much that I can do at this point in my pregnancy. I need to take things slowly and take breaks frequently because we did some major picking up, vacuuming, laundry etc. yesterday evening and I had a hard time falling asleep last night because my back hurt so bad and I had a shooting pain going down my right leg......maybe a baby laying on a nerve? Anyway.....trying to be productive today without overdoing it. If anyone wants to come over and help, I will gladly accept the company and the help! lol
Alright, I best be off.....too much to do. And to recap, at the very latest Dan and I will have a new baby by next Thursday May 22nd. Sounds like a good birthday to me!
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