leaving on a jet plane

All my bags are packed I'm ready to go.....

The dawn is breakin' it's early morn
The taxi's waitin' he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die.....

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane......

Tomorrow morning I will be boarding a plane to California to see my grandma, probably for the last time. My mom called me this morning and told me that grandma took a turn for the worse yesterday and that it was time for me to come out. I am heartbroken. How did this happen so quickly? I always assumed I would have more time. I thought there would be years. I am distracted, irritable, weepy and oh so helpless. Please Lord, let me make it in time, keep her mind clear long enough for me to tell her I love her and to say goodbye. Please let her recognize me. She means so much to me! This is SO hard.

These are from the last time I saw her.....a year ago.